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THIS BLOG 316 IS A CONTINUATION STORY. WE WERE DOING SIX INFUSIONS. NOW TWELVE. NOT HAPPY. WHAT CAN I DO BUT CONTINUE TO GIVE IT TO GOD.
I am on my second-round of six INFUSYSTEM , HOME INFUSION PUMP, CHEMO ON-THE-GO TREATMENTS. My first doses sent me in a whirlwind. I am knowingly taking poison home in a bag, while trying to maintain a normal life regime for 48 hours, no showers!! ARE YOU CRAZY??? More to come….
Hello,
It has been rough!!! I am about to start chemo round three. I said publicly if I did round three, it was tantamount to committing suicide. If you knowingly put poison in your body, what do you call it? Well, people did not understand my feelings. You cannot grasp my emotions, if you have not had chemo or lived in the house with someone on chemo at this level. I asked to die rather than live the quality of life I was experiencing. I shared all of my aches and pains with my oncologist. I cried to him to help me get to the third round and through it. He gave me an additional prescription and ammended my chemo itinerary. Let the games begin!!! Hopefully, we can sail through chemo three and finish all six still standing. Hallelujah!! TO GOD WE GIVE THE GLORY.
MY DAUGHTER, MY OTHER FAMILY MEMBERS, AND MY FRIENDS ARE THE REASON I AM STILL STANDING. THEY HAVE PRAYED WITHOUT CEASE TO OUR HEAVENLY FATHER WHO SAID YES!! I THANK GOD FOR EVERYDAY AND EVERYDAY TO COME.
CHEMO THREE. KUDOS TO THE SUPER STAFF AT WINSHIP CANCER CENTER, EMORY HOSPITAL, MID-TOWN!!!!!
APRIL 18, 2021……….
HELLO DARLINGS!!!! I AM GOING ON TUESDAY, APRIL 20, 2021, TO START ROUND FIVE OF SIX!!!
Yes, ROUND FIVE. I could not give you an update on round FOUR because that round delivered me to death’s door and left me to find my way back. I just found my way back Sunday night, April 18, 2021, just in time for Tuesday, round FIVE. I firmly believe, if I live through Five, I may possibly live through SIX. I cannot explain how badly I feel, 24/7. Especially when I am in Atlanta. I feel so alone and so weak. Anyway, there is a lot to unpack when you agree to take in poison, to try to save your life. So, my darlings, here we go again. Prayers go up and Blessings come down.
THIS IS MY JOURNEY TO HEALING, SPOKEN BY DAUGHTER.
PRAISES!!
INFUSION FIVE!!!!
In my best singing voice…Nobody told me , The road would be easy, I can’t believe He brought me this far, To leave me.
It was increasingly worse than the first four. I was so so so so so sick!!!! I do not have words to express the anguish; the overwhelming feeling of flat- lining; and, the stomach-churning, repulsive nausea. Tony Braxton said it best: Seven Whole Days. She says, Can’t take it won’t take it, Can’t take it no more…
AND TODAY, WE START INFUSION SIX OF SIX. MAY 4, 2021. ONLY GOD.
MAY 18, 2021
INFUSION 6 WAS SUPPOSE TO BE MY LAST. I WAS ELATED!! I SAID MY GOODBYES, PASSED OUT GIFTS TO STAFF, AND GLEEFULLY MARCHED OUT THE HOSPITAL. THE NEXT TEN DAYS WERE AWFUL. I REMAIN A SURVIVOR.
The visit to the my oncologist was devastating. He announced my infusions are scheduled for six months, not six times. Oh my goodness!!!! Oh, Lord. Help me.
I am sitting here waiting to start number one of the new six series. Pray for me. At least, AIB.TV IS RUNNING MY LIFEPLUS SERIES WITH CO-HOST, AUDREY GALEX AND WORDS OF WISDOM FROM THE EMINENT, DR. CATHERINE MEEKS. JOY COMES IN THE MORNING!!!!
I REMAIN PRAYERFUL. I HAVE RUN OUT OF WORDS FOR PAIN, DISAPPOINTMENT, AND EXHAUSTION.
I LOVE YOU.
